In the ’80’s, when Larry and I wanted a family,

we discovered that I had to go on fertility drugs.

The drugs worked very fast with a first pregnancy……our Lauren.

But when I went on them, hoping for a second child, nothing worked.

Larry and I together decided that we were happy with one daughter.

About a year later, I became very ill and DR  told me that I was pregnant.

It was wonderful news.

Four months later Jamison was born.

We had two daughters.

I had two children. How absolutely perfect is that?

I have never read anything that describes how I feel about being the mother of two daughters.

Two beautiful, independent women.

I love them so much that my heart bursts when talking of them.

They do not  need me now.

I have become their, retired Mom.

That is OK, they have things handled.

But I must confess,

It is difficult for me to stand back if they need me.

At times of celebrations, I become  happy for them

and

at times of deep despair,

my heart breaks .

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When the clouds come

I hope you can hear my heart.

A mothers heart.

It beats, smiles and cries

along with your

Life, Joy and sadness.

I pray that I did a good job,

being an example for you.

I stand back,

waiting

in the event you would need me.

But, you and I both know…

You’ve Got This.

Love you.

Me