And I Sit Here

Happy Wednesday! How are YOU doing? When I am at my lowest, I think about how YOU are doing.

Photo: Atlanta, GA 2019

Our days are odd to say the least. Keeping busy is not a problem for me. Face Book is not part of my day, except the moment when I post the blog link to this web site. I worry about my family and friends. I worry that someone within my family/friends will become ill. No, it has not happened and this virus is not a hoax.

Larry’s business has been directly impacted by the pandemic. (He is in the restaurant business) The restaurants will slowly reopen and hopefully jobs will be re-filled with workers who have been laid off.

Keeping busy…I read a lot. There is a 5’canvas in the studio that is sketched and ready for paint, my latest sculpture, The Toad, is drying in the corner and I scour the internet daily for vintage patterns. Larry and I have been invited to a wedding (in a far off state) in November and since it is formal…..I am convinced that I will either create a design or find an old pattern on Etsy.

My life has changed. I have given up very much this year. A tree went through our house when the tornado hit in Oct. Having breast cancer for a second time has changed much more than the first time. We have had to cancel/postpone two trips to France and one to Kaua’i. AND I sit here.

They are the operative words. I sit here. I am alive. I have a wonderful husband. We stay safe but have not stopped living. We stay safe for ourselves and for you. I refuse to live in a world of paranoia. My God and my faith are my constant.

Larry and I watch our local Presbyterian Church service (where we are members) on You Tube and Fr Jeff, Larry’s best friend from High school, is an Episcopal priest in Memphis TN. During our quiet times, we pull up Fr. Jeff’s lessons and listen together. Fr Jeff is our religious mentor right now and it is a true blessing.

As I sit here, I worry about the others in my life. What can I do? I can blog every day about being kind and non-judgmental. I can post photos from my moments yesterday and I can blather on about ART and reading. We are all in our own little world right now. Moving forward is going to be difficult and nothing will really-ever be the same. I want to try to make it better. I want to be kinder and more faithful. I want to be able to make people feel better and feel content.

What do you want to do?

Love you beyond the moon.

Me

4 thoughts on “And I Sit Here

  1. Sheri A says:

    When I read things like this, it makes me feel guilty that I am dealing so well with the shutdown. I don’t travel but maybe once a year so I have not been impacted in terms of travel. I am retired so I have not been impacted in terms of my paycheck. I am an introvert who loves living alone and being alone, so I have not been hugely impacted socially, though of course I have been somewhat.

    I thank God that I got through this past winter without my depression sinking me into a black hole that takes me through spring to get out of. If I had had to come out of that and into shut down, that would have been tough.

    Always love reading your words.

  2. Ellen Ripley says:

    You have just the right words to always lift others up. I don’t think you know how much your messages mean. You are truly one of a kind Thanks for being such a positive influence on others. I always knew you were a special person from your early days on North Street. ❤️

  3. Rita Leach says:

    You’re loved by us since we met on/about 2008. Bookaccino was interesting because each individual was unique in their own way. The love of books drew us all together. Bookaccino closed and we still keep in touch with special friends: you and Larry, Judy, Lynn, Cali, Kris, Kathy, and Debi.
    Thank you for sharing your life experiences. They help me rethink priorities and my love of God. You are in my prayers dear friend. Please include me in yours.

    Have a good Wednesday. It’s another beautiful and we’re alive??????????❤️

    I love you❤️????

  4. Bobbie says:

    Robin: I am also very inpatient for this to be over. I feel like Bill & I are in our own little world and most times that is OK, but more and more often it isn’t. I know our governor is trying to keep us all safe and with all the protesters she is having the most difficult time. I feel like I am in a dream. I remember in the past seeing many Asian counties where the people are wearing masks and thinking how odd it is, but now I know because we are wearing them! I hope that I will be able to trust and not wear mask and gloves to the grocery store some day. Will I? I wonder….

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