Yesterday would have been my Mothers birthday. I loved Mother {Gracie} beyond belief and miss her so much that sometimes my heart hurts. She was the best Mom. When I am troubled, sometimes you can hear me whisper: I wish Momma was here.
Grace was beautiful, brilliant, kind, graceful and most of all a good listener.
Gracie died about 6 weeks after being diagnosed with lung cancer in 1995.The day she was diagnosed, Lauren and Jami asked me to quit smoking. {I did and have not had a cigarette since June 25th, 1995} When I went to Mother and told her that I had quit smoking….what do you think that she said?
She said nothing. Nothing at all. I hope she was proud of me in some way, I know that she was struggling to deal with her cancer and life as she knew it during her last 6 weeks.
The last weekend that she was with us, I spent a huge amount of time with her. We sang songs, talked about the current Readers Digest stories, I cleaned her room {even that blasted chandelier that she had hanging in the master bed room!} and I dragged a Queen Anne chair across her bed {the only route to get it to a certain spot so that when she had visitors, they would be closer to her.} We had icecream in bed and she sent me off on errands so that she could have time with My Larry. Larry and Mother were very close.
OK. I know, you get it. I loved my Mother and she was one of the most important people in my life. {besides Larry} Sometimes a girl just has to say these things outloud.
Yesterday I felt very blue. The darn weather was miserable and I was missing Mother like crazy. While Larry was in town at meetings, I put Netflix on my laptop and while working on a project, I watched the first movie that came on the “feed”…it was called “Otherhood” and darned if it was not about 3 Moms.
It is an easy movie to watch and I loved seeing it on Mothers Birthday. Larry said that he would watch it with me again if I would like him to.
Yesterday, I had a few notes from people who remembered Mother. I loved hearing from each and every person and heard a few new stories. Each time that happens I think, Isn’t it wonderful how people are Remembering Gracie?
Love you beyond all the special stars in the sky.
Me