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A Mothers Heart

 

In the ’80’s, when Larry and I wanted a family,

we discovered that I had to go on fertility drugs.

The drugs worked very fast with a first pregnancy……our Lauren.

But when I went on them, hoping for a second child, nothing worked.

Larry and I together decided that we were happy with one daughter.

About a year later, I became very ill and DR  told me that I was pregnant.

It was wonderful news.

Four months later Jamison was born.

We had two daughters.

I had two children. How absolutely perfect is that?

I have never read anything that describes how I feel about being the mother of two daughters.

Two beautiful, independent women.

I love them so much that my heart bursts when talking of them.

They do not  need me now.

I have become their, retired Mom.

That is OK, they have things handled.

But I must confess,

It is difficult for me to stand back if they need me.

At times of celebrations, I become  happy for them

and

at times of deep despair,

my heart breaks .

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When the clouds come

I hope you can hear my heart.

A mothers heart.

It beats, smiles and cries

along with your

Life, Joy and sadness.

I pray that I did a good job,

being an example for you.

I stand back,

waiting

in the event you would need me.

But, you and I both know…

You’ve Got This.

Love you.

Me

These Two

I LOVE this photo.

It was taken at Jami’s  birthday celebration this year.

I have always envied  father~daughter relationships.

The lucky girl  knows that the first man she has ever loved,

will

make sure that she is safe and protected for as long as he is alive.

My Larry is that kind of dad.

And this daughter, Jamison had one heck of a bad year….

but when I see this picture….

I know that everything is going to be ok.

Those smiles tell the story.

Love you beyond speed racing.

Me.