Return To Me

I went to the DR yesterday and my blood pressure was so high, my DR is having me chart it for 2 weeks. (Yikes) I am also having a dozen tests done this week. My question is….when an office looks like this, who wouldn’t have high blood pressure?

Photos: Top: The outer waiting room. Middle: The Exam room. Bottom: the cartoon video instructing us how to meditate.

I walked around the lake a couple of times when I came home from the DR and it gave me time to think. After dealing with surgery and treatment from #2 breast cancer, I have not been eating well, days are NOT spent exercising like I should and anxiety is always nudging my brain… is just such an odd time.

It is an odd time for ALL OF US and we worry about the friends that we have not heard from. They are included in my daily prayers, hoping that they are just preoccupied and not ill.

There is a movie that I like. It is considered one of our Comfort Movies. It is “Return to Me”…..Have you seen it? The soundtrack is playing this morning and I feel very sentimental. Often, I wonder if everyone is feeling like me, having high blood pressure, prayerful and feeling sentimental?

Photo: Movie, Return to Me

Return to me is one of my favorite movies. It reminds me what is truly important in our lives. The music is one of my favorite soundtracks…. even Larry likes it. Please watch it if you feel inclined, or better yet, listen to the soundtrack. It will remind you what is important in your life. (LOVE)

I send love and calm to you today.

Love you beyond the moon.


A Watercolor Evening

My Larry had been planning a picnic for last night. The plans had been in the “works” for a few weeks. He wanted to have a celebration of sorts. We did exactly that.

Yesterday all of my breast cancer tests came back clear. After being so anxious about it forever, I thought that I would be happier than I am. I am hugely relieved, of course. I am not happy though. It is probably because I am still so pissed off about last year, and I have not gotten over it.

Larry ordered food from one of our favorite restaurants and we headed to the Dallas Arboretum for dinner. The Arboretum was having music in the garden. In different gardens, there were different ARTists. We headed to the lake and settled in.

Our picnic dinner was from GAPCO PIZZA. (A Dallas tradition) We had a Caesar salad. veggie pizza, pizza poppers, garlic rolls and little chocolates. We drank Champagne and enjoyed a classical guitarist during dinner.

I kept thinking that Larry took a gamble, planning this amazing evening for us. What if my radiologist found something in my X rays again? Larry saw me frowning a few times and made me smile instead. Larry is kind of awesome like that. The night was lovely.

I had forgotten my good camera and only had my phone. Sorry about the photos.

Photo: Celebration at the Arboretum.

Photo: Sailboats were out on the lake last night. (like a watercolor painting)

It was a beautiful evening. People wore masks and social distanced. Twilight was my favorite because it made me feel like I was in a watercolor painting.

Larry’s celebration was perfection. I love him so much and I know that he is relieved today too.

Do you celebrate things too? How do you celebrate and do you include the people around you?

Love you beyond the moon and stars.



On Saturday, Matilda and I made a video for North/West Texas Komen Walk as a shout out for TEAM BELIEVE.

I am not good at things like this, but Matilda is a pro and she loves it. (and comes by it naturally)

In 4 weeks (Sept 12th, 2020) the Dream A Dream Quilt will be raffled off. If you are interested and would like to donate To TEAM BELIEVE….please go to the link below and find the information.

If you have any questions, please contact me at

I took a few shots of the quilt today. It is twin size and hand made by me.

The mermaid block reads…..

“Close your eyes and dream a dream and seek the courage to make it real.

Reflect on the past, envision the future and embrace today with an open heart and soul.”

I loved making this quilt….I made it during treatments for my latest breast cancer journey. The positive feelings that this quilt gave me are indescribable. My wish is, that the positive energy stays with it forever.

I have been fighting breast cancer since July 2012. Now I am in remission.

I found both of my cancers due to early detection. That is why I support Komen. Every woman has the right to have a screening (mammogram) ….it is a matter of life and death. I am the poster girl for early detection.

Dream A Dream Quilt is ready…..please consider supporting early detection. (and becoming the new owner of a quilt)

Love you beyond the stars and moon.


The Other Side

I am here. I have come out on the other side.

And I am still here.

Starting in early October, the journey has been difficult and memorable.

With the help of many amazing people,

I am moving forward with a very good prognosis.

You checked on me, sent cards and prayed.

So many amazing people.

I need to rest and recover from “treatment”,

looking forward to 2020, getting back in shape and most of

all…living my best life.

Photo: Candy Shoppe at the Dallas Arboretum

Love you beyond the moon.



Hello wonderful readers. I wanted to let you know that I am taking time off from The Blog. It is a temporary absence and as soon as I feel well, will be back.

I am leaving for surgery and treatment of breast cancer. I have been through this before and honestly do not remember how long it took me to feel better. I will take things one day at a time.

Please look me up on Instagram. Robin Tolbert or Pastelred is my name ( I am going to try to post a photo daily} . You can also email me at

Thank you.

Love you BEYOND the moon.


Team Believe Lives

One week in October, I was diagnosed with breast cancer for the second time in my life and a few days later, a tree fell into our house.

Because of these things, we postponed our trip to France to stay home, have the house fixed, have surgery and start cancer treatment.

I feel deflated. I could not go on blogging / journaling without sharing the things happening in our life.

Sharing this news is always difficult. It is 2019 and people still gossip about cancer. I dread so many things over the next months, so, please if there is a crazy post on Blog, forgive me and we can blame it on the meds.


Love you beyond the pink ribbons.


Sunday Highlights From The Cottage

Breast Cancer Fact: On average, every 2 minutes a woman is diagnosed with breast cancer in the United States.

Photo: The apple cobbler is out of the oven before we leave for church.

Photo: The Cowboys play Green Bay at 3:25 today

Photo: Ready for church.

Please get your breast cancer screening soon.

Love you beyond squishy boobs.


Pink And Protein

Breast Cancer fact: Breast cancer is the most common cancer in American women, except for skin cancers.

Photo: Pink at the Imaging center


Yesterday, between conference calls and reports, at lunch, Larry, Pink and I went to the blood donation center. Larry gives double reds twice a year. Yesterday was the day. I cannot give blood.

Photo: At Carter Blood Center

When Larry donates, we never know what will happen. He gets ill, passes out, or various other interesting things happen.

That is why, whenever he gives blood, double reds, we go and have a hamburger after. Even if he does not want it, this is what we do. The protein seems to help him very much.

Photo: Pink at lunch

Today before he went to work, Larry and I walked our laps at the lake. He seems fine. {for now} It is Friday and I am glad. It is going to be a busy weekend, but one filled with special people.

I wish you a wonderful weekend too.

Love you beyond special moments.


A Red Hat

Breast Cancer fact: This year, an estimated 41,760 women will die from breast cancer in the U.S.

Photo: Pink in tulle

I hated sharing the above fact with you. There is one way to change that number. Have your yearly screenings.


Today is going to be hot…again. My afternoon is super busy but this morning is just for me. {Larry is in Dallas}

Since I finished Lauren’s Christmas gift, {don’t worry about me mentioning her gift. She never reads ze blog} I am starting on my Halloween costume. We have a few events that I wear a costume to and waiting till the last minute drives me mad. Besides. I love how happy people are around Halloween.

Photo: Hat fabric and pattern

Today is “Hat Day” using the pattern shown. The hat I am making is the view on the bottom left. The hat will be red, lined in dots.

It was a coincidence that I chose the dot fabric. It matches the boots I bought weeks ago!

Photo: My new Wellies

Will you celebrate Halloween this year? {I dislike when people say that they do not celebrate Halloween because it is an evil holiday. Halloween can be anything YOU want it to be. Please don’t use the excuse evil….because, if your heart is true, you can do anything} My plan is to make people smile this year! Last year I had the same plan. BUT I tried on a huge costume head at the market to make Larry laugh. For my reward and trying on that huge head, I got my very first case of pink eye. Go figure. Sixty four years old and getting pink eye for the first time The fun thing is, I can still hear Larry laugh when I tried on the costume head!

My sewing machine has brand new red thread threaded in it and I am off to make a hat! I have never made a hat like this before. Stay tuned!

Please make today, whatever you want it to be.

Love you beyond Pink and tulle,


Pink and Paddington

*Breast cancer fact : 62% of breast cancer cases are diagnosed at a localized stage, for which the 5-year survival rate is 99%. This is where my breast cancer fits in. I was stage one prior to surgery. During surgery they discovered that the tumor was much larger. I then became stage two in a matter of moments. Early detection is life saving.


Yesterday, Pink and Paddington went with Larry and I to the fabric store. I am making a Halloween costume. What I have planned needs blue and red fabric. Bet you cannot guess.

Photo: Pink and Paddington

You can guess, but just don’t guess out loud. The little Paddington in the photo is from Paddington Station in London. His pearls are from Poip’u Kaua’i. Pink was given to me and it was a special gift. They are my treasures.

There is a Christmas gift in progress, on the floor of my work room, it is almost finished. When it is complete, I will start to make my Halloween costume and then I have one more Christmas gift to finish before November. My goal: To finish all hand work before going away on holiday. HOLIDAY!!!

My back has been hurting and I feel like I have taken on to much. Making two huge Christmas gifts this year and there are 85 days till Christmas! It seems so far, but it will be here sooner than we imagine.

The sun is streaming into the room. It is 80 degrees outside. Already I have a little fan blowing on me as I work at the sewing machine. It is an interesting morning. I feel tired but inspired, with a get things done attitude.

I wish you a happy day. Please fill it with all of the things you love. That way, if something unexpected happens, you will be surrounded by love.

Love you beyond PINK RIBBONS.