Trying To Stay Calm

I hope when you read this…I will be home.

Today is round two of mohs surgery.

Last weeks surgery and today’s was scheduled at same time

with no thought of my liver failure last week.

It is 5:30 am that feels like 4:30 am

Darn daylight saving time

I am very tired and feel sick.

I don’t wanna go.

Love you.

Me

Titles and Soundtracks

Last week, while DR M was stitching me up after surgery on my scalp., we had a discussion about books.

I said: When I admire someone, I love to get book titles from them.

Then the funniest thing happened. He  started telling me what medical journals he was reading.

It made me smile because I do admire him and his sense of humor.

He then asked me what I was reading.

I said: Cider House Rules.

He said: Michael Caine!

I said: Better yet! Rachael Portman wrote the music!

Dr M said: ahhhhhh

I love Cider House. I love John Irving and Michael Caine. Rachael Portman is one of my favorite composers.

Last night after dinner was consumed, meds taken, My Larry and I settled in bed and we watched The Cider House Rules. My head was on his chest and his arms were tight around me as we watched Dr Larch and Homer Wells.

It was the marked end of a crappy week.

 I am so very grateful for the love and care around me.

Thank you Jamison for cuddling in bed and watching Moana with me.

Thank you Lars, Josh & Matilda for coming for a short visit and for the french pastries.

Thank you Debbie and Lew. You made dinner for us. It is so appreciated and it is the first complete meal I have eaten all week.

{not to mention it was delicious!}

Have a good day dear ones.

Love you.

Me

 

 

Facts and Fiction

Fact.

I am at my work table.

I am nauseated and light headed.

The back patio doors are open and birds are singing.

Libby is snoring.

Larry is on his lap top checking air fare to places far away

and

life is amazing.

All facts.

Except this tid-bit.

Last Saturday Larry and I went to Matilda’s soccer game.

After the game,  Josh treated us to frozen yogurt.

I had not had ice cream or yogurt in a year,

so naturally, I was a glutton.

This is my yogurt cup.

filled to the brim with all things good.

Lauren believes that my I became ill this week

because I ate to much yogurt.

FICTION.

But I have to admit, even looking at this yogurt bowl

makes me feel sick.

Looks like no yogurt for me,

for a long time.

And that’s a fact.

Love you.

Me

 

The Story, MOHs or Less

Hi.

I am feeling ok for a moment and thought I would write.

So many texts and mails, asking me what happened this week,

If you forgive me, I will answer everyone here.

Monday I had MOHs surgery scheduled.

A large cancer on my scalp, again. This is #3.

I went to surgery and Dr M is terrific.

He got all of the cancer and stitched me up.

{I love him and his office}

Larry brought me home.

I rested, read, knitted.

Larry made me dinner around 5.

After eating, I felt bad.

It felt like indigestion but lower.

I started vomiting.

I kept vomiting till 2:00am Tuesday morning.

It is then Larry swept me up and took me to Baylor Emergency.

I was carrying my barf bowl,

I was pacing because of the pain

and barfing.

The nurse asked if I was having an anxiety attack.

HAHAHA.

I was admitted to the hospital by 7:00 am Tuesday morning.

To make a long story short,

After my gall bladder was removed,

{4 years ago}

evidently a stone remained in the bile duct.

A silent, innocent  stone, not hurting anyone till Monday.

It tried to pass but was stuck. Hurting me and

in the process, backing up all liver function

and making it very angry.

Our normal liver enzyme count is 100 something.

On Tuesday, mine ranged between 1,100 and 1,300.

Poor mad liver was messing with all of my organs by this time….

and I was really sick.

So I was in the hospital…for my liver.

Not my scalp.

I had Xrays, sonograms, CT scans, blood panels every two hours,

an MRI, EKG, and a service dog named Buttons

came to visit.

I passed the stone.

I passed that puppy!

I am now recovering from the toll it took on the rest of my body.

I feel wonderful. Just tired.

My scalp is healing. {on my  shaved scalp}

Larry is working in his office at home today.

He just came in the bedroom, I am blogging from bed,

he kissed me and said: you are doing so well.

Can you hear me sigh?

Thank you all, for the notes, flowers, love, texts and prayers.

My cup runneth over.

Love you.

Me

Three Bags At A Time

I have not been sleeping well.

At night, I toss, turn and look at my phone.

Days have been perfect, but I think perhaps

that I have not been exercising enough.

There are 4 projects on my work table,

tonight is Book Club,

My Larry has been long gone across town for meetings,

Libby has been throwing up once a day

and

I feel like merde. {excuse my French}

I will close the blog for a few days.

{but please stop by, I will be posting a daily photo or two)

Umbrella Girl 

The sun was shining as she flew into the clouds.

Taking the time to catch up with herself

and 

the ones around her, was a priority.

The jelly bean wishes that she dreamed about at night

might come true after all.

~R~

Do you know that My Larry buys a lot of  jelly beans?

{three bags at a time}

He digs out the black ones and throws them away.

Goodness.

I love The Man.

Me

Cheese Puffs~ Chef Valentine

It seems like I have been making cream puffs/cheese puffs all of my life.

This recipe is my favorite for cheese puffs.

If you have never made them before,

read the recipe well and take the directions step by step.

Cheese Puffs

Ina Garten’s Precious Recipe

Ingredients

1 cup milk

1/4-pound (1 stick) unsalted butter

1 teaspoon kosher salt

1/8 teaspoon freshly ground black pepper

Pinch nutmeg

1 cup all-purpose flour

4 extra-large eggs

1/2 cup grated Gruyere, plus extra for sprinkling

1/4 cup freshly grated Parmesan

1 egg beaten with 1 teaspoon water, for egg wash

 

Directions

Preheat the oven to 425 degrees F. Line 2 baking sheets with parchment paper.

In a saucepan, heat the milk, butter, salt, pepper, and nutmeg over medium heat, until scalded. Add the flour all at once and beat it vigorously with a wooden spoon until the mixture comes together. Cook, stirring constantly, over low heat for 2 minutes. The flour will begin to coat the bottom of the pan. Dump the hot mixture into the bowl of a food processor fitted with the steel blade. Immediately add the eggs, Gruyere, and Parmesan and pulse until the eggs are incorporated and the dough is smooth and thick.

Spoon the mixture into a pastry bag fitted with a large plain round tip. Pipe in mounds 1 1/4 inches wide and 3/4-inch high onto the baking sheets. With a wet finger, lightly press down the swirl at the top of each puff. (You can also use 2 spoons to scoop out the mixture and shape the puffs with damp fingers.) Brush the top of each puff lightly with egg wash and sprinkle with a pinch of Gruyere. Bake for 15 minutes, or until golden brown outside but still soft inside.

40 cheese puffs

These cheese puffs are the perfect appetizer.

Very retro with a modern flair.

Enjoy.

Till next time,

Valentine.

Better Yet

On Saturday night, Larry and I went to town for dinner.

We met a wonderful couple,

The restaurant :

Pepe’s and Mito’s

Owned by good friends…it is a  favorite in Dallas.

The couple we met:

Lorie & Jeff

Lorie, is my cousin and she married Jeff about 2 years ago.

Lorie is always sweet. She is compassionate and fun.

Jeff is the perfect mate for Lorie.

We had such a good evening with them

and will see them again soon.

Isn’t it interesting about family?

There are just some of them that you adore.

Yes, Lorie is from the side of the family that disowned me.

Larry and I love this girl.

She renews our faith …..

Please, never forget,

Even when things seem very bad,

there ARE good people out there.

Better yet, we can BE one of the good ones!

Thank you Lorie for reminding us.

Love you.

Me

Sorry Wolfgang Puck

It was an awesome weekend.

Even though Larry was diagnosed with an

upper respiratory infection and bronchitis,

he started his medicine and rested.

Larry and I have a Oscar Dinner each year.

We see all of the nominated movies,

then plan a dinner around the red carpet and awards.

We really don’t care who wins,it is our excuse to go to the movies.

LOTS of  movies.

It was such a nice evening…

and we watched every moment.

The commercials were wonderful

and

Jimmy Kimmel was spectacular.

{I wish he were my brother IF I had a brother}

The movies that I liked this year,

must have to do with my frame of mind.

That is ok…….

it was a wonderful evening.

I am proud for all of the talented actors who saw their hard work

come together in one amazing project to be nominated.

Dinner: {sorry Wolfgang Puck, ours was more delish}

Steak, potatoes, veggies and cheese puffs.

Larry chose the menu and wine.

The wine was an old bottle  that he had been babying.

It was perfect.

And dessert…..oh my, dessert.

Larry asked for a 1/8th sheet cake from Kroger.

{The birthday kind of cake}

It is our dirty little splurge and we did.

Splurge that is.

In honor of OSCAR

Congratulations to all of the awesome winners.

ART in any form is inspirational….

May we  appreciate the greatness in others

instead of criticizing and demeaning them

We are so blessed…..

AND I ate Kroger Cake last night!

Love you.

Me

Movies, Movies, Movies!

 

Each year, Larry and I try to see all of the

 academy award nominated movies.

This year 2017, we have done very well.

Larry has been sick,

so cuddling in bed watching movies last night,was perfection.

 We watched

Moonlight

and

Hacksaw Ridge.

We have hit our movie quota for this year

and

now we are preparing for tomorrows gala.

{it is Sunday Dinner and Movie night after all}

Do you have a favorite nominated movie?

An actress you adore, who you would like to see honored?

{not to mention  the red carpet arrivals}

Larry and I wish you a happy Academy Awards evening.

Love you.

Me