It Is Wonderful

Photo: Libby and Paris Caf’e

I have been missing Libby very much this week. Perhaps it is because I have been struggling with a migraine. Whatever the reason….it always puts me in a thankful mood to have had Libby in my life and to just be me. How blessed have I been?

Blessings come in so many ways. Good and bad. Being thankful for them all, helps me stay centered.

I am also thankful to have the ability to journal like this daily. A BLOG. Who would have thought of this 50 years ago? It is wonderful.

Love you.



Photo: One of Matilda’s class ART projects

I felt sluggish on Tuesday and then a migraine hit me. Yesterday, Wednesday I still had a head ache and felt awful. I have been very tired with this. But…It is Thursday. I am dressed to walk a few miles but do not feel like it at all.

Have you ever noticed that when you don’t feel well, so many things can piss you off? I limit my social media time because many of the Captain Obvious postings and the self serving ” feel sorry for me’ postings make me anxious. I want so badly to say something nasty and when I don’t feel well the temptation is to great.

I have an interesting painting on the easel. I have worked on it this week and promised myself that I would not over-think this painting and that I would relax and enjoy the process. I have a tendency to keep painting when I should have put my brushes away 20 minutes earlier. It might be a summer of new ART habits.

It must be time for me to go to the lake. Maybe I will feel better after fresh air.

What do you do when you are sluggish, agitated and anxious? Do tell. I need all the help I can get.

Love you.


Last Week

Last week, we had the honor of attending Matilda’s ART show at her school. It was amazing. It was genius. It was inspirational. To view the ART of young children and the promise that they hold is truly a gift to grandparents such as Larry and I. The future is golden.

Photo: Matilda and Larry at Matilda’s ART show.

A Matisse painting is worth millions….but being a grandparent is priceless.

Love you.


Que, Sera, Sera

Photo: Sunday Dinner

On Sunday, Dinner and Movie, Larry and I grilled chickens, made potato salad and bought rolls for dinner. I made an ice cream pie for dessert.

You know that Doris Day has been my favorite actress since I saw one of her movies at a drive in theater, outside Philadelphia, in the early ’60’s. {The movie was Glass Bottom Boat} After her death last week, I planned Sunday dinner around her memory. Yes, we watched Glass Bottom Boat.

We enjoyed our light dinner while we toasted Doris Day and the wonderful entertainer she was. Have you ever seen IT HAPPENED TO JANE? I love Jack Lemon too.

Doris Day did not want a memorial service or to be remembered in any way, but Larry and I remembered her. I loved her. I will forever enjoy her movies and the spirit that she brought.

So in the happy bubbly spirit of the beloved actress…. Que, Sera, Sera.

Love you beyond The Glass Bottom Boat


Komen Race For The Cure

We walked the Komen Race For The Cure on Saturday. It was an overcast day. I had a piece of paper with the names of special people next to my heart and I felt as if I could cry during the entire morning. Year lucky 7 is a sentimental one for me. {I am 7 years into this remarkable journey} Next year, there will be ART raffled. I am inspired. Below is my favorite shot from the day.

Photo: TEAM BELIEVE ~Declaration board for Komen website

My experience this year has been different than the past 6 years. Some people feel that my cancer threat is gone and I do not need their support. I must be honest, each day that passes, my anxiety about a recurrence gets worse.

This past year, some “people” have been interesting. A friend even tried to hijack my Komen fund-raising account and make it her own.{you do not want to know} I did not raise as much $$$ this year as in past years but the funds were donated from the heart. That means the world to me. Thank you all.

Today, I am thankful and proud. I would like to thank you for the support and love given to me. I send you each virtual hugs and as much love as I can muster on this page. You know who you are.

Today is beautiful and joy fills my heart.

Love you beyond the moon.


Team Believe 2019

These are the names who will be carried next to my heart during the Komen Race For The Cure,

I will be adding: Larry Tolbert, Jami and Jared, Lauren Josh and Matilda to this list. There are not enough words to thank you all. I do not know what I would do without you.

Pink surrounded us

and strength grew with each breath.

You are the pink that stirred

the positive karma that restored health.

Healing comes in all forms,

rejoice in the journey.

Love you beyond the moon.


Missing Mitzu

Three years ago today, Lauren’s pug dog passed. She was the sweetest girl ever and I miss her so very much.

Photo: Mitzu smiling

Mitzu was always filled with energy and sweetness. She was younger than Libby Pug and her sudden death came as a surprise. I had always thought that when Libby would leave us in her old age, Mitzu would be here to comfort us.

Mitzu died almost one year before Libby and having them both gone is difficult for me.

Both Jami and Lauren have wonderful dogs now and I love visiting with them….but I do not think I want another dog now.

Mitzu was smart and she did a little dance when I would be putting her dog food bowl down. I called her Tiny Dancer.

Today, in honor of Mitzu, I will whisper prayers and send love out into the void. Rest well Tiny Dancer. I love you.

Love you beyond the moon.


Mother and Daughter

Photo: Matilda & Lauren Mothers Day 2019 The Modern Museum-Ft Worth, TX

I took the photo above on Mothers Day. I love how Matilda and Lars are looking at each other. Mothers and daughters have a special bond. It is a secret society. It is a gift from God.

Early this morning, I received an email from France, from a very good friend telling me that her Mother had passed. Madame was 93 years old..She was a renaissance woman. Her husband had been in the French Resistance, she drove race cars. When she was in the states, we would always plan dinner parties. She made the best couscous I ever had. She raised two children alone during very difficult times….and most of all, she was Anne-Marie’s Mother.

During my walk this morning, I was thinking about the special bond mothers and daughters have. There are almost no words to describe the relationship. I miss my Mother often. I am her legacy. {Hope I am doing OK}

Love you beyond the moon.


We Visited For A Second

Many people will walk in and out of your life

but only a true friend will leave

their footprint on your heart.

~Eleanor Roosevelt~

My Life has been wonderful. I am married to my best friend. Lauren and Jamison are the joys of my life and my granddaughter Matilda inspires me every day to be positive and creative. There is one more aspect in my life that is important. Friendship.

I know many friends come and go. Some are fakes and ego driven but, then, there are the certain few that come into our lives. they make a difference just by saying hello.

They are the earnest, sincere friends, who touch your life in an unexpected way. They support you and recognize the bumps in your life and each visit is a treasure.

Last Friday, while Larry kept working, we drove to Austin, TX. A friend of mine was visiting from California. Larry and I met Rosemary, her husband David and daughter Whitney for lunch at the sweetest cafe in Austin. The Launderette. We visited for a second. Wait! It was three hours. Time flew by. Larry and I were honored that they took the time to visit with us on their busy Mothers Day weekend!

Photo: from left: Whitney, David, Rosemary, Larry and me

Please note, the flowers on the table. Whitney handed them to me after a hug and wished me Happy Mothers day. They are so beautiful. I held them all the way home. {From Austin to Plano}

Larry and I had the BEST Mothers Day weekend ever.

Thankfulness is a part of each day for me. Rosemary, I am so very thankful for you.

Dear readers, have you thanked a friend recently? Have you just taken a moment to say hi? Rosemary is my example to try to be a better friend…..

Love you.


And The Winner Is….

On Saturday evening, the winner of Komen Race For The Cure Raffle was chosen. Jamison and Jared invited us to their house for dinner and together, they picked the name out of a crystal bowl. We had pizza, salad and over dessert, Jami and Jared picked the winning name.

Congratulations Kathy Anderson! Team Believe appreciates your support of EARLY DETECTION.

PHOTO: Jami and Jared, picking the winning name

Next Saturday, May 18 th, is the Race For The Cure. I will have each name of TEAM BELIEVE 2019 members on a piece of paper close to my heart. Thank each and every one of you for being so supportive !

Photo: The winner is Kathy Anderson!

The photo is blurry, My new camera was focusing on something other than Kathy’s name…But you can see it…

Jami was tired and not very well while we were there. We had a lovely visit, celebrated Mothers Day and we laughed a lot.

Jared gave me a beautiful begonia plant and a new LODGE cast iron skillet. {I am sooo excited about it} Jamison, gave me ART. It is a phrase from the song, Wonderful World and designed beautifully. But honestly, just being there was gift enough for me.

AND the winner is….ME! And Kathy. It was a perfect evening. My cup runneth over.

Tomorrow’s post will be “Mothers Day, part two.”

Love you beyond the moon.